Sometimes you have to go deep

into dark waters of emotion:

grief, trauma, loss, sadness and sorrow

before you can rise like the Phoenix

and fly freely

into your unknown future.

I will face all my fears and tears

with bravery and courage and grace,

I will not run from them

or try to mask or Bury the pain

with temporary Band-Aids.

I am fully committed

to healing my heart

so I can be the best me

for my children and

those around me.

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From My work with
grief recovery Method
and Vicki Hagadorn

My Grief, she speaks…

She has shown me that…

I didn’t know real pain until I was desperately inhaling his sweater for remnants of a scent that once gave me life…

I didn’t know pain until every single moment I shared with the ONE person now I face alone…

I didn’t know pain, until I see the immense hurt in my children’s eyes and know its the one time I can’t make it better…

I didn’t know pain, until our next chapter then became “my new reality” instead…

I can go on for another 35 yrs & infinity…

My Grief she shows me….

That I am stronger than I EVER thought possible…

That I release through my art and feel moments of real joy…

That I will persevere and triumph for my children…

That I will continue to honor myself and break generational curses!

That I will heal, because I am dealing with it,

every single ounce of it…

It’s most definitely not enjoyable, in fact its actually something I wouldn’t wish on anyone!

But, I have GOD on my side, and through him all things are made possible!

I have sooooooooo many images I will be creating for my grief journey,

They will be my next chapter babies, Something that I give life to that in return gives me the life I now need more than ever!

This post isn’t for pity, its to honor my love and to acknowledge YOUR love/loss…

Grief, I see you

I feel you

Until the next time, I ride the wave with you!

Elena

“A remnant of my soul”

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“It takes a man to capture

The heart of a woman,

but it takes a real man to

keep it for a lifetime”

~ Sharilyn Snyder

Sadly, it seems there is a shortage of real men in this world,
thus, we have such a high divorce rate.

If you have been loved
or are loved
by a real man
leave a heart ?? below
to give a girl some hope.

1) Self-Reliance. Have they successfully endured some time as a happy single? Are they capable of “adulting” without being totally dependent on parents or a boyfriend/girlfriend? The best marriages are two, whole, powerful people joining forces, not two half-people trying to be one whole person.

2) Spiritual Alignment. Our spiritual beliefs underpin every big decision we make. If you’re not aligned spiritually on “meaning of life” kind of things, you’re setting yourself up for potential disaster.

3) Growth mindset. Look for 1 or more of these clues:

– physical exercise/diet regimens

– reading books on personal or spiritual development, business, finance

– working on improving their habits

– attending classes/conferences not required by an employer

Basically, do they work on themselves with their own time and money?

4)Physical attraction. Don’t care what anyone else thinks. Through your own eyes, does this person ‘rev your engine’ a bit? Did your heart beat notably increase the first time you held or thought of holding their hand or putting your arms around them?

Good morning, friends,
it’s been seven months and I’m going on my first date today from E Harmony.

I feel like I fit two years of grief recovery and healing into my first six months?, as I exposed the lies and embraced truth.

I don’t believe I’m ready for a serious relationship,
but I’d like to explore friendships and possibilities.?

My heart is open to finding love again, my antenna is tune in to the wrong kind of person, I am working to be free of judgment and just get curious About how men think and behave?.

When you have experienced True unconditional love and successful partnership and you know life is meant to be shared and your loved one wants nothing more than for you to love and be loved,
Why would you say no?

My response when asked

“What’s the reason for your smile, Sharilyn?”

(By the way, that is my given name)

“The truth is, there is not much in my
external circumstances
to cause my smile,

I could tell you a hundred reasons I should be stressed and depressed,

but I choose to create a smile and joy and ecstasy on the internal through gratitude and meditation.

This is a new thing for me to explore.

My grief and loss propelled me into the research for solutions.”

Ps.
I have studied several books that lead me on this journey, if you send me a PM request, I will share with you

We were known as a

power couple:

two individuals who would be successful on their own but their love makes them stronger.

We made a positive impact on our world and we got sh*t done ?

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How do Court Reporters keep straight faces?? These are from a book called ‘Disorder in the Courts’ and are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and published by court reporters that had the torment of staying calm while the exchanges were taking place!!!

ATTORNEY: What was the first thing your husband said to you that morning?

WITNESS: He said, ‘Where am I, Cathy?’

ATTORNEY: And why did that upset you?

WITNESS: My name is Susan!

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ATTORNEY: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?

WITNESS: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.

____________________________________________

ATTORNEY: Are you sexually active?

WITNESS: No, I just lie there.

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ATTORNEY: What is your date of birth?

WITNESS: July 18th.

ATTORNEY: What year?

WITNESS: Every year.

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ATTORNEY: How old is your son, the one living with you?

WITNESS: Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can’t remember which.

ATTORNEY: How long has he lived with you?

WITNESS: Forty-five years.

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ATTORNEY: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?

WITNESS: Yes.

ATTORNEY: And in what ways does it affect your memory?

WITNESS: I forget..

ATTORNEY: You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?

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ATTORNEY: Now doctor, isn’t it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn’t know about it until the next morning?

WITNESS: Did you actually pass the bar exam?

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ATTORNEY: The youngest son, the 20-year-old, how old is he?

WITNESS: He’s 20, much like your IQ

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ATTORNEY: Were you present when your picture was taken?

WITNESS: Are you shitting me?

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ATTORNEY: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?

WITNESS: Yes.

ATTORNEY: And what were you doing at that time?

WITNESS: Getting laid

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ATTORNEY: She had three children , right?

WITNESS: Yes.

ATTORNEY: How many were boys?

WITNESS: None.

ATTORNEY: Were there any girls?

WITNESS: Your Honor, I think I need a different attorney. Can I get a new attorney?

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ATTORNEY: How was your first marriage terminated?

WITNESS: By death..

ATTORNEY: And by whose death was it terminated?

WITNESS: Take a guess.

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ATTORNEY: Can you describe the individual?

WITNESS: He was about medium height and had a beard

ATTORNEY: Was this a male or a female?

WITNESS: Unless the Circus was in town I’m going with male.

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ATTORNEY: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice which I sent to your attorney?

WITNESS: No, this is how I dress when I go to work.

______________________________________

ATTORNEY: Doctor , how many of your autopsies have you performed on dead people?

WITNESS: All of them. The live ones put up too much of a fight.

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ATTORNEY: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?

WITNESS: Oral…

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ATTORNEY: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?

WITNESS: The autopsy started around 8:30 PM

ATTORNEY: And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?

WITNESS: If not, he was by the time I finished.

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ATTORNEY: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?

WITNESS: Are you qualified to ask that question?

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ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?

WITNESS: No.

ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?

WITNESS: No.

ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?

WITNESS: No..

ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?

WITNESS: No.

ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?

WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.

ATTORNEY: I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?

WITNESS: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law.

Some videos that changed me Forever…

Out of the shadows

Cabal 1. (17 part series)

religious brainwashing revealed

We are not free from the crown!

https://youtu.be/BQMxyYdOevE

The absolute solution I dream of…above

I don’t want it to ruin your holiday, so I suggest watching it after the holiday