Let Freedom Ring
My beloved children, I’m so sorry you are fatherless.
Some very bad people determined his life wasn’t worth saving and traded it for a hundred thousand dollars…
?Best. Dad. Ever.
Our kids grew up with me telling them the best thing I ever did for them was to marry that man.
I know how scarry this is. My wife died in October of 2021 to hospital protocols with Covid 19. Go to FLCCCs website. They have doctors in each state. Please look for a compounding pharmacy, they can make larger doses of ivermectin than 3mg tablets. If you can immediately reach out to a naturalpath doctor or a wholistic doctor.
Nattokinese is natural and it will help stop blood clots from forming. You need NAC. Both can be found at a health food store. There are a whole list of protocols I can send you if you would like to message me. Some I didnt know when going through this with my wife. Keep moving and anything that passes your lips has to have nutritional value. Smoothies with microgreens and fruit, bone broth, coconut water, keep your nutrition up. I don’t want to see anyone go through what we went through. Time is extremely important.
Friendship, love, joy, laughter and tears brought me so much healing this weekend, I can’t even begin to tell you…
Thank you so much!
It was magical and bonding as most had never met and some came from far away, when strangers become family after a few days, it’s beautiful to watch!
We played in the river in my back yard,
Ate chicken enchiladas, home made ice cream In honor of Todd, went to a rodeo and outdoor western dance, a fun sleepover for out of town guests, Sunday at the empty cross with coffee and homemade cinnamon rolls, prayers and healing tears, then to tour the Tiny coffee house, lunch, river baptism and sad goodbyes…until next time
Thank you dear friends, for the birthday wishes, my weekend celebration was as perfect as it possibly could have been and surpassed all I could have hoped for…God has blessed me so much!
It’s been Four long months since I touched him,
at 8:43 am on Jan 25, 2022, I held him as he breathed his last
As hard as it was, I am glad I was there when he crossed over to our eternal home, I am glad our daughter was with us,
he had been nearly dead for days, but I refused to believe it so I wasn’t saying goodbye,
I was preparing to raise the dead DESPITE all the tubes and 4 life support machines for 4 organs and all the monitors screaming ? their Warnings,
BP 18/22 then Lower and lower…
The day he died was the worst day of my life,
I wanted God to take me too.
When I vowed on June 1, 1996, “til death do us part”, I never dreamed it would be “til murdered do us part”
His body had survived two sepsis attacks and the third one in 30 days was too much after being starved and majorly dehydrated and drugged with SO MUCH poison against our wishes,
He lost 72 pounds In 57 days and had no reserves left to fight. He wanted to fight. Most don’t survive one sepsis attack let alone 3.
I was still declaring in faith, “Todd snyder, you shall live and not die”
Every breath was so labored, he was sedated, all his organs successfully destroyed by the harmful protocols.
He was a donor, but there was nothing left to donate.
He had perfect organs before the illness, he took zero meds and was very strong and healthy.
The day he reached around me to squeeze my butt from the hospital bed after 8 days in isolation was still with most of his strength, he was communicating so much to me in that meaningful touch,
just 3 weeks later, all he could manage was a half squeeze with half strength, a few days later he attempted again, but could barely raise his arms,
my heart broke ? to see my strong husband have the life slowly and painfully and needlessly sucked out of him for greed and I was powerless to do anything but watch as all my requests and rights and POA were denied over and over by every single person.
A prisoner had more rights than we had, it’s like he was a kidnapped victim and treated like a POW, if you saw the photos I have, you’d agree he looked like a POW.
The 57 day battle was so incredibly fierce, I could slice the evil forces I felt when I walked into his room after being forced to leave each night with a knife, spiritually, the evil attacks that came from all directions and the online Haters of unvaccinated sick dying people was shocking to say the least, I am working through PTSD all the time.
I have hours and hours recorded of these conversations of me fighting begging pleading, climbing the ladder to the CEO’s.
I had friends In the room who witnessed me literally on the floor at the feet of a doc begging him to give a high dose vitamin C IV while he was fighting the second sepsis attack ( it’s completely preventable, I have the proof and research how to with multiple different remedies).
I had stacks of research representing hours and hours of my work that remedies like vitamin C works for Covid, ARDS, sepsis, and so much more.
After fighting for days, I got a doc to agree to my request, but when he ordered it, pharmacy said they didn’t have it and couldn’t get it and refused to let me buy some at a compound pharmacy up the street and Bring to them to test and administer. They agreed to 300 mg Liquid C 3x a day instead.
I spent over $5,000 on a patient advocacy company working to help save his life too. There was nothing We didn’t try, no resource We didn’t exhaust, no stone left unturned,
the problem was never that I didn’t Have a proven solution that would heal him and save his life, the problem was they refused to let me try anything other than the approved protocol for a Cv patient.
On a positive note, I had the most amazing support from our community local and online, I’m forever grateful to each person who fought with me, who donated, who mailed packages, who brought me food, who embraced me and prayed with and for us. Forever Grateful!
Today, I sit here alone in the house he was remodeling for us, all our future plans and dreams completely shattered, no more…
no more time, no more touch, no more sharing our lives, our love, our children and future grandchildren together, all destroyed and robbed.
When the grief attempts to swallow me whole,
I remind myself how short life on earth is and how soon we will be reunited for all eternity, never to be separated.
If my journey has taught me anything, it’s that Heaven is far more real than this life on earth and we don’t always get what we want, but if we trust Him and Refuse to be bitter, we can be the Victor over our enemy!
The devil stole so much from me, I refuse to give him any more. I cannot be threatened with Death; I do not fear it, I have survived my greatest fear. I won; Todd won; God won!
I am thankful he is perfectly healed and so happy with Jesus,
I find comfort that he is fighting for us; I believe he is a general of a heavenly army and when he saw he could do more good from the other side, he chose the greater good.
We have all of Heaven behind us and we will win!
photo minutes after he passed.
“Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.” James 4:14
If my journey has taught me anything, it’s that Heaven is far more real than this life on earth and we don’t always get what we want, but if we trust in Him and Refuse to be bitter, we can be the Victor over our enemy!
Last photo we had together, Nov 9, at Punta Cana airport
???Complications of Widowhood: what’s one of the worst things? Feeling so vulnerable and weak, having to ask for and receive help from
Someone other than your husband.
I don’t believe you ever MOVE ON this side of Heaven, but you must MOVE FORWARD bc the alternative is not healthy!
I don’t believe any amount of time will ever heal this void in my heart, I’ll carry my scars right up to the gates of Heaven, where there is no time and no scars.
I am learning to let Jesus Carry my grief and my sorrows.
Maybe one day my wound will be so calloused it doesn’t cause me so much pain ????
it seems that’s the best I can hope for…
I love you with everything in me, always and forever, my darling!
I would choose you a thousand times over…
I miss our conversations, you were the best listener, compassion and love oozed out of you!
I miss your genius mind and your brilliant heart of wisdom.
I took it for granted and now it’s gone…
? Laugh more (I laugh as if my life depends upon it bc it does!)
? Drink less (alcohol lost its appeal)
? Swear more ???? (common among victims of Covid loved ones lost to hospital protocol$)
?I don’t save many broken things for Todd to fix later, he could fix just about anything and saved us so much $$$
? Socialize less (less free time doing both roles)
? I eat cereal and sandwiches because it’s quick and my son likes boring foods
? I listen to music a lot, I used to prefer silence
? I don’t watch movies or TV shows much
? I have an amazing mink Lola blanket I snuggle with and sleep on top of my comforter, not under the sheets naked
? Worry, stress and fear do not have as much hold on me since facing my greatest fear and surviving
? No one can threaten me with death
? My evenings are filled with loneliness followed by nights of insomnia, I often remind myself of Jeremiah 29:11 and I choose to believe my life isn’t over and by some miracle the best is yet to be
? I knew how to be scrappy and resourceful, but am even more now
? I rarely go to restaurants because I don’t want to sit alone
? I am in total awe of the the masculine and how much it balances the feminine
? I am very guarded about keeping my son and I safe, I installed a security system and keep guns close by
? I actually notice when I’m in the presence of a good looking man and wonder if he’s available (I had blinders on my entire Married life)
? I find myself wondering if Home Depot or Heb grocery store might be a good place to find a hard-working God-fearing widower since I don’t frequent bars and I don’t want to do online dating apps.
? When I’m required to do a task he used to do, it takes me a long time to think it through and figure out how I’m gonna do what he did…a long time
? The tenderness and affection I feel for my son and he for me is like 100 times greater; he enjoys spending time with me now (Todd was his best friend and Andrew had unforgiveness toward me since becoming a teen) I am much much easier on him. This was my #1 concern after Todd passed, how am I gonna do what he did for Andrew? God turned it into my #1 praise and blessing
? I started packing a lunch for my son each day and I had no idea How loved a PB & J sandwich would make him feel ??
? I am constantly playing detective trying to follow the clues Todd left me and wondering what was in his brain esp RE building and tools and projects that fell into my lap
?I am very hug deprived
?I am so much more tender, compassionate and grateful
?Extreme exhaustion and lack of deep breathing
?Materialism doesn’t draw me in and chasing after money doesn’t appeal to me
? Eternity is so real and all that matters
? I am more Self aware and True to my feelings
? I have less excuses because there’s No one else to blame
“Not gonna lie, Grieving is the most exhausting work I’ve ever done!”
??Mary was “Highly Favored” but was almost put away by the man she dearly loved.
??She was “Highly favored” but was rejected by every person in her home town as she carried a miracle in her womb for nine months.
??She was “Highly Favored” but laid on the dirt floor of a filthy barn to give birth.
??She was “Highly Favored” but in the middle of the night she was forced flee to Egypt to save her and her child’s life.
?Favor will never look like favor at first glance.
?Favor sometimes walks through frustration, failure, fear, even heartache to get to greatness. Is there favor on your life?
?You might have to walk through the darkest night before you see the dawn of a glorious day.
?Today you may be In a place where no one sees you and you feel like no one understands what you are going through.
?All you have is a dream or a word from the Lord that you are favored.
?It’s in these times where it seems the darkest that you have to declare
?”God is not finished with me! I have favor with Him and my life will bring Him Glory.
?I will not give up, give in, or go down.
?I’m ‘Highly Favored’ and what will be birthed through me will bless the nations of the earth.”
Some have given up and left the favor they had behind because they faced adversity.
Hear me today, don’t be like them!
Be like Mary and give birth to something that will bless the nations.
-Prophet Charlie Shamp
