I can tell I’m making progress

I found 4 of the 13 Days I was on vacation that I didn’t cry

I’m not gonna lie

it was a very difficult trip but very rewarding too

I’m glad I did it

I saw about 90 friends and family bc there were 3 big parties I got to attend and I felt so loved ?

At my daughters grad party
she asked me to make homemade ice cream and I had a Meltdown/panic attack as I stared at the ingredients thinking how many times He had made that for us and for others and how he should be here now

If he had a trademark he was famous for
it was that and his life giving hugs? that energize you

His sisters came to my rescue, cried with me and helped me finish the task
but it hurt like hell

The other very difficult day was spreading his remains In the lake…

I went so Many places where we made memories

including our first apartment in Grand Rapids, MI, where we had our first home birth

I drove past the cinema and restaurants where we made memories together

I was on the beautiful Torch lake where we honeymooned

and Lake Michigan where we vacationed for years as a family

my memories are priceless and precious

I can’t say I have no regrets, but the ones I do are small and I am so glad!

You Either live with the pain of discipline or the pain of regret

Marriage, relationships and parenting are hard work, but so rewarding if you keep getting up when you Fail and do your best to grow and change who you are to be able to love more and more