1. There is no such thing as closure.
2. There will always be regrets. No matter how much time you had, you’ll always long for more.
3. There is no timeline. You will grieve, in some form, forever.
4. Grief is not a linear “5 stages.” It is messy and confusing.
5. Grief can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy.
6. However badly you thought it could hurt, it’s a million times worse.
7. Grief will make you question your faith, your life, your whole purpose. And maybe that’s not always bad.
8. You will grieve their death, but also grieve for the future you no longer have with them.
9. There is no “normal” to grieving.
10. You’ll lose yourself. And it’ll be difficult to find yourself again.

by Jessica Traczynski

As a minimalist, a professional designer and organizer this is unbelievable that I lived with it as long as I did.

I stared at it for 100 days after he died,
It was the view from my bed each night and day.

I felt paralyzed, it was the last space tackled, Sometimes I wondered if I was afraid if I cleaned it up, he wouldn’t come back, sometimes I felt I was procrastinating at picking up my businesses again.

I knew when i finished this project, it would represent a lot of healing inside my heart.

I was born in 1973,

I’m grateful I wasn’t aborted,

I have Dreamed of seeing Roe v. Wade reversed!

If that makes you unfriend me, I’m okay with that,

I love you,

I don’t judge you,

but life is too short to play games and not be authentic!

I am rejoicing with the hosts of heaven for this victory!

I am pro life!

I am pro women and I believe abortion Harms women and scars their hearts forever!

James Says pure religion and undefiled is caring for the widows and orphans.??

I don’t know a lot of people who live this way, but
Hunter Boon has done it for years
All Across the globe…

God bless you my friend!

Today, He provided timely advice through you once again.
You’ve been one of our best cheerleaders for 4 years since we met you.
You championed our marriage, our business, our dreams and you didn’t judge.

I’m paying it forward because of your influence. You’ve taught me a lot!

James 1:27 – Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.

1. We collected memories not stuff.
2. We traded a mortgage for many adventures, some with kids and some without**
3. Our HGTV experience together is one I will always cherish.
4. Our main motivator was to invest more time into our only child left at home.

(He was 11 when they built our first tiny house. Andrew was mentored in far more than just building houses. They were best friends and did practically EVERYTHING together)

5. When he died suddenly, he left almost no debt and many assets for us.
6. We had a lot of fun working together and made great memories helping people.
7. During Covid, we lived on a large ranch in west Texas where Todd taught Andrew to fish and kill rattlesnakes and be a man.
8. I spent more time learning to love myself, practice self care and be stronger spiritually.

*Photos from our daughters wedding 6-22-19

**Trips during tiny living: Dominican Republic, Mexico, Branson, MO, Kentucky, Florida, Tennessee, Georgia, Alabama, Nevada, Indiana, Chicago, Michigan, inside Texas:
nacogdoches, port aransas, south padre island, Dallas, Austin, etc.

The biggest transformation my tragedy has brought me is to live in the moment and BE PRESENT!

My motto is

SUCK ALL THE JOY

out of every moment

because I’m not promised tomorrow

and

relationships are far more important than chasing stuff or accomplishing tasks or making money.

If you gave me the choice between $1 million life insurance policy and a loving community to sustain me and help me be stronger and more resilient, I would choose the latter every single time.

I’m not saying it wouldn’t be nice to have both, but I thank God daily for His provision and blessings!

True wealth
IS
relationships!

Thank you to each of you for Loving me so well!

My beloved children, I’m so sorry you are fatherless.
Some very bad people determined his life wasn’t worth saving and traded it for a hundred thousand dollars…

?Best. Dad. Ever.

Our kids grew up with me telling them the best thing I ever did for them was to marry that man.

I know how scarry this is. My wife died in October of 2021 to hospital protocols with Covid 19. Go to FLCCCs website. They have doctors in each state. Please look for a compounding pharmacy, they can make larger doses of ivermectin than 3mg tablets. If you can immediately reach out to a naturalpath doctor or a wholistic doctor.
Nattokinese is natural and it will help stop blood clots from forming. You need NAC. Both can be found at a health food store. There are a whole list of protocols I can send you if you would like to message me. Some I didnt know when going through this with my wife. Keep moving and anything that passes your lips has to have nutritional value. Smoothies with microgreens and fruit, bone broth, coconut water, keep your nutrition up. I don’t want to see anyone go through what we went through. Time is extremely important.

Friendship, love, joy, laughter and tears brought me so much healing this weekend, I can’t even begin to tell you…

Thank you so much!

It was magical and bonding as most had never met and some came from far away, when strangers become family after a few days, it’s beautiful to watch!

We played in the river in my back yard,
Ate chicken enchiladas, home made ice cream In honor of Todd, went to a rodeo and outdoor western dance, a fun sleepover for out of town guests, Sunday at the empty cross with coffee and homemade cinnamon rolls, prayers and healing tears, then to tour the Tiny coffee house, lunch, river baptism and sad goodbyes…until next time

Thank you dear friends, for the birthday wishes, my weekend celebration was as perfect as it possibly could have been and surpassed all I could have hoped for…God has blessed me so much!