He was my PLAN A all the way, baby! Never had a plan B.
When lying in the hospital, I told him passionately through tears how much I need him, I said “you know I’m such a hot mess without you! I don’t want another husband! I just want you the rest of my life! It took me 25 years to train you; I’ve got way too much invested in you and you know it, don’t you dare die on me now!”