widowhood has taught me 3 key things In the first 90 days:
- appreciation for marriage
- appreciation for marriage
- appreciation for marriage
This Week was particularly hard. It’s as if when 90 days passed, I was hit with the reality of new losses that accompany the loss of a spouse and new anger and rage. I grieve the loss of my husband and I grieve the loss of my marriage my future and my identity, I grieve the loss of a two income household and no life ins. I took great pride and comfort in being someone’s wife and being responsible for his happiness health and well-being and of course having that reciprocated. I loved Being protected and provided for and the safety and security that someone has my back at all times and would lay down his life for me.
We finished a Container Tiny Home project for a client he had started and was really looking forward to finishing when he got out of the hospital. We got the porch halfway completed that he had also started before he got sick. after 90 days, I finally got my office organized and I wanted to show him and have him rejoice with me.
He wasn’t here for Andrews first job at Home Depot and the school play and he wasn’t here for Christianna‘s graduation from college. New waves of grief, sadness and lots of tears… I am finding comfort in the book my friend gave me yesterday and looking forward to meeting the author who lives in my city.
