(It just happened again when a perfect stranger stopped Me at Home Depot, it wasn’t any creepy sort of way)
I know they see Jesus in me so
I thank them and nod my head with a knowing that they are right, but it is quite trivial as I know it’s just a side effect of walking through hell on earth and still believing in heaven.
Trust me, you don’t want to be as beautiful as me! My beauty shines from the inside, My insides were shattered into a million pieces, it’s only because I let Jesus do surgery on me Over and over again as my heart keeps breaking that I can still stand and still smile and still be beautiful! I guess He does make beauty from
Ashes, I just wish there was another way! I wish my love was still by my side and still in my bed with me…
But it was the decades of walking with Jesus before my trial that allowed me to respond that way.
If you wait until the trial happens, it’s too late, you’re totally screwed!
My strength is also a result of Todd loving me unconditionally for so many years and my desire to honor him as I know he sees everything on earth and I cannot let his death be in vain.
From the time I was 14 years old, my life verse has been Philippians 310 “that I may know him and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable to his death“
From a friend: My Lyme doc in Seattle and colleagues did research on the frequency of which Covid entails. The frequency was of complete evil with low vibrations to break down the spirit via the biochemicals of the brain- This Covid virus was created to do this. Light therapy is so important while having Covid and best from watching a sunset or sunrise. Doc said this with prayer changes the frequency into a God vibration and can lessen symptoms heal one faster along with nutraceuticals/ supplements/herbs. My doc told me to stare into the sun 30 min before sundown with a grateful prayer of healing. What would of taken me a long time to heal bc of Lyme, was cut to a few days. This “God frequency” as she called it is needed through the eyes from our sun- and not through a window, but looking at it outside. It changes the Covid frequency and shuts it down.
Sounds woo woo, but I embraced it and it was such an experience of comfort, love, happiness, and peace.
If you look up Masaru Emoto, the word “Covid” spoken on drops of water creates a demonic structure. Just unreal. Covid was intentionally created this way and it makes me really wonder what these “vaccines” will be doing to people a year from now?
Also check anti biotics that are prescribed – some of them have graphene oxide – check them by using a magnet if the particles in the pill stick on a magnet then they have graphene oxide in them
NIH officials and mainstream media are recklessly harming Americans with misinformation on ivermectin. Americans take prescription ivermectin every day in sequence multidrug therapy for early ambulatory COVID-19. Misleading statements by the media over the medicine which is safe and effective in COVID-19 and supported by dozens of studies is costing American lives as early treatment is the only way to reduce the composite of hospitalizations and death.
After Dr. McCullough’s public statement with Dan Ball, the Association of American Physicians and Surgeons came out with a letter directly to the American Medical Associationcalling out their irresponsible statements to Americans.
AMA claims that ivermectin is dangerous and ineffective despite the safe prescription of billions of doses since 1981, and the mostly favorable results of 63 controlled studies in COVID-19. AMA does not specify any recommended early treatments, but simply urges face masks, distancing, and vaccination.
The AMA does not produce evidence reviews of guidelines panels, and thus is far beyond the guardrails of their mission in trying to harm Americans with misinformation on ivermectin.
NESARA
Test Swabs
Watch this nanobots glow in the dark – these are c test swabs
“The prerequisite to true freedom is to decide that you Do not want to suffer anymore, you must decide that you want to enjoy your life and there’s no Reason for stress or inner pain or fear.”
Life is too precious to entertain the robbers of my joy.
Pain is inevitable; suffering is a choice.
To have a heartbeat is to know pain. To know love is to know Loss. We cannot avoid grief on this side.
I don’t get to choose what happens to me in this life; I only get to choose how I respond to it and whether I am an Overcomer walking in joy each day or I can choose an identity of a defeated poor helpless widow suffering from depression until the day I Leave this earth and go home and join my beloved. I choose the former and In choosing JOY, I am honoring his legacy and making my Father proud and shining His light to the world.
I knew my Husband was killed because of greed and lies, but my how the plot thickens! ***See comments for brand new movie link…
The only reason we went to ER on Nov 30, 2021 was to get the monoclonal antibodies and go home, but they refused to give it to him because his oxygen levels had dropped to 72 after wearing a mask waiting in the ER. Once they put him on oxygen, they refused to give him the antibodies. Then they checked him into the hospital and no one in the hospital can get Monoclonal antibodies. Four days before he died, they outlawed monoclonal antibodies for all, January 21, 2022. We said from day one, absolutely no remdisivir and no vent! I think they did the first without our knowing Bc he had all the symptoms of perfectly healthy organs all shutting down within days, the cytokine storm and 3 sepsis attacks, all side effects of a that drug. 57 days of pure torture, he was repeatedly refused food and water And every life-saving protocol I requested and even begged over and over again.
He lost 72 pounds. how many more needless Deaths before we all unite and stand up and stop the lies and tyranny? How many? Will it be your loved one next or YOU?
I sat through our normal one hour of worship at church last week and didn’t cry once but could rejoice and praise the Lord; every other time I couldn’t stop the tears ?
I was able to look around at all the happy couples and families and people who still have their husband and father and be happy for them ?
I am finally able to look at three of my close friends who’s husbands also went through Covid within the last six months and came home alive and I can rejoice for them
I am able to forgive and feel compassion toward the criminals, Trusting God for justice
I have more good days than bad days, more joy than sadness
When I relive our memories, it Brings a smile and gratitude
I can once again feel others pain and I have way more compassion than ever
I keep pressing in to the waves of grief and emotion when it comes and I let the energy flow in and back out, not Getting Stuck because I resist the truth that this is my reality now and I choose to believe the best is yet to come because God promised he will redeem all the enemy has stolen
I wish I could be at church today but I’ll be driving home 6 hours.
When you’re faced with an unwanted new life, devastated by loss and you’re overwhelmed with sorrow; seek the face of the Savior. He knows the agony of separation and the anguish of grief. Matthew 26:38
When your body aches to be held, but the hands you long for are no longer here; let the hands that hold the galaxies hold you. He is the God of all comfort and He is enough. 2 Corinthians 1:3-5
When you wonder who will take care of you, now that you are alone; acknowledge the One Who has always taken care of you. He knows your need and He won’t abandon you now. Isaiah 46:4
When you feel vulnerable, insecure and frightened; fear not! The sustainer of all creation is also the defender of the widow. You are safe in His care. Psalm 68:5; 91:4
When you feel desperately alone, unknown and unseen; remember El Roi sees you. He knows, He is near, and you are never alone. Genesis 16:13
When it seems like the world has moved on and left you behind; cling to the rock of ages. He will never leave you or forsake you. Isaiah 41:10
When your eyes are blinded by your tears, turn your gaze to the One Who collects every tear in His bottle. He is touched by your sorrow. Psalm 56:8
When the tightening in your chest makes it hard to breathe, inhale prayers and exhale praise. Let Him breathe new life into you. Ezekiel 37:5-6
When the silence is deafening; give ear to His still, small voice. He whispers your name. 1 Kings 19:12
When you wake up and are forced to remember, all over again; also remember that you have not been left comfortless. He walks this valley with you. John 14:18; Psalm 23
When questions swirl about like a hurricane in your mind; fix your thoughts on the One Who calmed the sea. He can calm the storm in you. Psalm 107:28-30
When it feels like no one cares; remember the One Who clothes the lilies and sees every sparrow that falls. He knows the number of hairs on your head. He hasn’t forgotten the sparrow and He won’t forget you. Luke 12:6-7
When you haven’t slept in days and rest will not come; come to the gentle Savior who gives rest to your soul. Cast your cares on Him: He cares deeply for you. 1 Peter 5:7
When you’re so very tired of being strong and weakness threatens to undo you; rest in the mighty arms of the Father. Let Him carry you and renew your strength. Isaiah 40:29-31
When you’re trying to carry it all, for yourself and for others; lay it down and let Jesus carry it for you. His yoke is easy and His burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30
When it feels like the pain will never stop; think of the joy that awaits those who love Him and see your agony pale in comparison. One glorious day, He will wipe away every tear with His own nail-scarred hands. Romans 8:18
And when you think that the only person who really loved you is gone and you will never be loved again; speak this truth to your heart: “God so loved me, that He gave His own Son, so that if I believe in Him, I will never truly die, but have eternal life.” Do you believe this? John 3:16
My focus is creating a life my son and I can love again and writing a story I can’t wait to tell Todd on the other side My imagination created a happily ever after once So I have what it takes to do it again….
? I’ll rise up, rise like the day, I’ll rise up, rise unafraid, I’ll rise up and I’ll do it 1000 times again!????
If caterpillars can have new life, we widows can have #beautyforashes
We can Rise out of the rubble like the mythical phoenix! *photo credit Todd Snyder